I felt no passion in my job, dissatisfied in my relationships, creatively stagnant, heartbroken by the injustice in the world, and deeply out of touch with my true self. I felt lost, hopeless, anxious, and confused. I was frustrated with myself, and blamed my upbringing and others for where I was in my life. I doubted myself, and didn’t know it was possible to live a fulfilling life with purpose and connection. Even the concept of “a fulfilling life with purpose and connection” sounded cheesy and unrealistic to me.
I pictured myself continuing down this path, leading to an unsatisfying life of checking off items to fit ‘the mold.’ I envisioned myself settling in a relationship that didn’t feel right, taking a job promotion because it was in front of me, and not moving to a new city because change felt difficult.
My anxiety and depression gradually heightened, until my suffering was displayed so clearly that all my tears and denial could no longer hide the pain. As I reached a breaking point with my experience with life, I began to ask myself: Why am I so unhappy? How can I feel more peaceful and satisfied in life?
It was clear that I needed to make some changes. With support from amazing coaches, healthcare practitioners, friends, books, self care practices, travel, and deep self reflection, a profound sense of clarity and compassion began to develop in my life.
By no means do I have everything figured out now. I still get frustrated, confused and overwhelmed.
I do however feel in touch with my true self. I have more clarity around my boundaries and needs. I take ownership of my decisions and life choices. I am more compassionate with myself. I have tools to foster more meaningful relationships with forgiveness. I prioritize the nutrition, movement, exercise, and rest I need to feel healthy and alive.